I cry. It also makes me proud to know that I was conceived out of love. I was a 19 year old college student with absolutely no plans to marry or have kids at that point. Today its been 1 year since the surgery. Thank you so much for sharing this. I found out I was pregnant today and through the tears, I scheduled the appointment. Im sad, but dont regret it. We agonized over what to do and spent a week making our decision which whilst incredibly painful was ultimately the right one for us. STOP! Listen to your heart, there is no wrong choice. Unfortunately my health started to take a turn for the worse. You can always come back. I tell her, I cant. Im honest enough with myself to know that if I leave, I will never will come back. God bless . I dont know how I got to this point of being so mistreated and lost. I was so excited when I found out because I didnt even know if could have kids. He had a vasectomy and yet I ended up pregnant again. My heart is breaking but I cant have another child on my own. Hesitantly I got the pill, I was just a day before 10 weeks, I held my baby and cried until I couldnt. Now it is 3 months later and I always find myself looking at bassinets and baby items. Im not mad at you anymore. Im the same, my partner cant understand why it still or ever did sadden me, he says it was too early no heartbeat, for that reason he does not feel what I feel, I cry alone, still. Im at a loss. Every now and then I am haunted. Published Jul 29, 2015. Its been 7 years since my abortion, and I miss her. I go to sleep the same way I have every night since I found out about you: heartbroken and tearful. I feel that it was indeed the best decision for me but Im so emotionally torn that i feel horrible for doing it i was also about 5 weeks . Dr. Jennifer . I was so lonely and had nobody to talk to, man I really thought I was gonna go crazy when we took the break. Dont worry though youre not pregnant!. I am heartbroken. I think when we choose to do something like that we are so confused. Colorado. There are no other words. Good luck on your decision if you havent made up your mind yet but no matter what, I am sure it will be the best decision for you. This broke him completely when I got the abortion done. Yet we faced a third pregnancy two years after deciding that our family was complete. And just as I had for months prior, I did so with ease, telling myself, What another waste of $15. See, my boobs hurt and were swollen; I was tired; I was hungry. This is me right now,I dont know what to do its so hard. Remorse Is Forever By I cry at every baby shower/kids birthday party I go to, in secret of course. It helps to know I am not alone so thank you. You'll be grateful in eternity! I feel like I have to get the abortion or he will resent me and our relationship will be over. It haunts me every day . Im Ill never be sure if I made the right decision, but Im financially incompetent right now. An Honest Letter About Abortion. I feel like regardless if I keep our baby or not he is not going to be apart of my life anymore. I can hardly keep up with what I have now in my life. She returns and hands me an envelope. I will make my decision within the next 2 weeks. Baby. Im in the beginning of my nursing school. She wrote this piece to destigmatize abortion and to offer a story of strength and hope to women and men alike. I am 18 and got an abortion 4 weeks ago. We dont say any words, but our embraces tell each other that we did the right thing. Xxx, We are all such incredible and compassionate women. God bless you and your family. During that time, I had to learn a lot about our choices were, and I didnt want to scroll past your comment without sharing some of that knowledge. We have been having the same unprotected sex as we were while still together. I dont want having another baby to be detrimental to my current children and cant help think that it will be. Thank you for your sorry. I couldnt relate more to this paragraph you wrote: I wish I could turn back the hands of time. I really dont! Sending love xx. My boyfriend stayed with me but after a while he started blaming me and our relationship change . Been with him for 5 yrs & hes still married to his first wife and they both share an 8yr old she wont let him see her since she turned 4yrs old but cries about her expressing how much he misses his babygirl. Thankyou all for sharing your stories + most of all the letter to the little light. The first line showed up dark pink as it always did, and then, suddenly, a faint second pink line emerged. He started to be excited about the idea of starting a family with me and even though we were both stressed and both cried a lot.. we finally started having discussions about moving in together, getting better jobs finding a healthcare provider and all types of different things to prepare for our baby. When I found out I was pregnant, was overcome with fear. Im a mother to 5 boys.. 2 from my previous marriage that I share 50/50 custody of and 3 littles that are with me 24/7. Maybe you're worried about money or becoming a mother or just getting through tomorrow. Im grateful I was in a position to have options and make a choice as a woman. Your baby will always be with you, even if your boyfriend isnt. We left the hospital with him saying we can try again. I did have a moment of sadness and what ifs but ultimately I was so sick( 7 weeks 4 days) I could not wait to get it over with! Do I honor my heart and have another sweet lamb, potentially subjecting this human to another absentee parent who secretly resents their existence- OR- do I get the abortion. Floating in your tummy, feeling snug and warm. She wo t talk to anyone as she feels she would be seen as weak. The baby daddy is crying too because we have a lot to achieve in life and this isnt what we expected. I had not passed my probation period and I wanted to prove myself, to be as good as I could be. Mark Ruffalo spoke out on reproductive rights this weekend, penning a letter in support of a woman's right to choose. Its what he wants. I was 6 weeks when I went for an ultrasound .. and all I saw was a small blob that I referred to as my nugget. And sent a special angel to look after me Did you end up keeping your baby ? And then we came back home. Use "He" or "She" When Talking about Her Baby. Says he can no longer trust me as I betrayed him for the past 10 years. I think Id end up more broken than ever. I was afraid, honey. I wasnt ready to quit my job. Help us build the most popular collection of contemporary poetry on the internet! We chose 3 yrs ago to decide to be Childfree. April S., New Jersey. Know the Issues. We cant afford this baby. Norma McCorvey, the plaintiff in Roe v. Wade, never had the abortion she was seeking. I was very sad.! I just wanted to say thank you for writing this. I have a lovely 5 year old sweets, a better partner that would totally support me should this happen again..nope. I still do. There was no internet to look up information, and she didn't know about pregnancy . (Sense my sarcasm, little one.) Just a few days before my 22nd birthday. I want a burrito. I dont want to lose you. Regardless of the decision you make its a life long one so be very sure. A letter from baby to mom right before abortion Hi mom, how are you? And I was supposedly either unable to conceive or it would be extremely difficult. But I want my baby so bad. The situation was messy and It all feels like a blur now. As opposed to most elective . I open it and see two pictures of you. I knew she hurt for me too. So many of the feelings you described in your post match mine, and as I read, I finally felt something other than alone. Thank you again. I still wonder if o made the right decision. Im working on it though. Maybe you think no one understands. Although I did it for health reasons I am still recovering. I was wondering how you are feeling. This is your decision and you must do what feels right for you. I feel that too I was once pregnant while I was doing matric 2016 I was confused and lonely because I did not know what to do by that time but I found myself lost then I decided to do abortion sometimes it hunt me to a point where I cant think straight but I had to forgive myself for that because I did the right choice for myself. The connection is like no other. And now Im starting to think I am one. You have a child. Were you touched by this poem? Thank you. But like you said, when i see those two pink lines again, i know it will be my baby coming back to me. All Ive ever wanted is to me a mom. Just like our loved ones that preceded us. Im afraid that in a few years I wont be able to based on my cervical health. But why was this pregnancy right now? I just felt I needed more time to see other heart specialist and doctors to figure out what can be done about my heart before I have another child. The film is based on a story called "A Letter from an Aborted Child," which had been used for nearly 10 years by Father Stephen Lesniewski to show women in a time of indecision. 36 years old and its looking like I wont get another chance. Oh mommy, I can't go on anymore help me 17 years have gone by since you made that fateful decision. My pregnancy officially ended this evening and it hurts so bad, I feel so much sadness and loss, but I know my baby would not have had the life they deservedas difficult as it is to process, I know deep down that this was the right descision, this baby deserved so much more than I could give. A heart touching letter from a unborn baby to his mother baby is very happy when he is conceived and think that his mother is world's best mom and he share his happiness with his mother telling her all his activities and growing stages in her tummy but his parents decide to abort this baby.. prayatn Follow Advertisement Advertisement Recommended Top human rights organizations are calling on the United Nations to intervene over the destruction of abortion rights in the US.. What you did in your life is your history and your past and whatever you choose to share with your husband, or what he found out on his own, is a privilege; it is your truth and what he knows of that, he should consider as an honor, because it is your unique story to tell. I want to be respectful and listen to people who have been through the same as me. I know one day when everything is settled down and fine she/he will come again and Ill be more prepared. I wish I would have told him to have a nice life. I'll sing loudly in my first school concert I found out I was pregnant on September 23rd, 2 weeks before my 21st birthday. Praying for you! I hope that there wasnt a little soul in there yet . Im almost 6 weeks pregnant and although I want this baby, my husband does not. The dad had permit and he wanted to have the baby And he even offer to get merried because I also was afraid of telling my family and I said no with in 3 or 4 days after founding out I abort our baby . I felt empty after too, 10 years later and I still have regret. I really can not explain how happy I am to know that you'll be my mom, another thing I also proud is to see the love with which I was conceived It seems that I will be the happiest kid! Tears and snot are running down my face as I write this, I have 2 beautiful little girls after this and it hasnt got any better. no one is on my side. She assures me, You dont have to do this. I tell her, I do. I compose myself. But its her decision in the end. I had gone off my birth control a year prior and I didnt get my period for six months; then once I did, they were not predictable: they always came, but my cycle wasnt steady. However I was so sick I could barely make it to class and I was on the verge of going to the hospital for dehydration. I know it not quite the same but its just how I feel. Im in a very similar situation, I have a 3 year old, my fianc and I decided to try for number 2. And then I blurt out, without any grace, and much louder than I intend, Im pregnant. His eyes get wide as frisbees and he says, Wait. Massachusetts Democrat told to resign after abortion remarks leave parents irate. Hes verbally abusive, Ive spent all my money on him, no savings, lots of debt he makes the money I just make very little. Now, Im regretting every single day of my life. It will be 8 years since my abortion in July and I still think about it every day. Ive always wanted to be a mom, and already, I feel like I know you and yet I cant have you. But the six-week deadline contrasts starkly with early American abortion law, where the procedure was legal until "quickening"the first time a mother feels the baby kick, which can happen . We do not have the money, the room, were too old, etc. At times I couldnt walk, couldnt eat, loss 9 pounds in one week, shortness of breath and felt like I was having a heart attack. Thank you for sharing your story, I made a promise to myself my decision was not in vain and Im almost done with my bachelors degree. Wish I had a way to contact you personally. I live with my boyfriend hes 39yrs old. The pain in my gut has not gone away. I would give anything to have my baby back. I also feel like taking that risk, that my baby is worth the sacrifice. We hope to be parents one day and in honour of everything that has happened and what we have been through are doing everything we can to build a secure future so that when the time is right we are prepared. I love this story. You were my everything. Im only 21 and Im not financially free. I support her no matter what her decision is but ultimately I feel like she is too young to make the rest of her life set and stone. But in reality I know who the dad was because of what had happened on the night we spent together but it did not help my decision as I felt so ashamed. I have a 13 year old with my boyfriend and we live together. Best of luck xx, I had an abortion when I was too young to provide a child with the life it deserved. I am so heartbroken. No one understands what Im feeling, I hate myself for this. She told me he has a live in girlfriend for 6 years and the girl has a 10 year old son that is not his but he helped raise. I failed my baby boy and Im still trying to figure out how to be at peace with myself and sometimes Im so scared I never will be. I hope everything will be okay. You don't know me yet, I'm only a few weeks old. All the what-ifs led me to deciding that the best decision for me would be to terminate. 30 years old , Im pregnant now. I thought the tears would stop but they dont. I am thinking of you xx. But its only 5 weeks so its nothing more then a pack of cells still, right? I feel like shit because I was raised that this was wrong. I also didnt want to be a single mum of someone who did not want the child. I pull out a second test with two pink lines, that I took while on the phone with my sister this time in the apartment, this time repeating different expletives. I was literally petrified and afraid that no matter what I tried to do, what if I couldnt get it all in order before my baby got here? So many people would love to give that little one a home. It hurts the relationship with my husband, and we are about to be separated as we cannot communicate anymore. Would adoption be something you could manage? Considered his feelings but ultimately decided I wasnt going to to do it. Get the Poem of the Day delivered right to your phone! I wish I could advise a podcast or supportive tv bit for her to watch. All of this is to saymom, you have a child, it's me. Sharla Ynostrosa | 01/11/2021. I dont want to get in trouble I just dont know what to think anymore. I had not long been in a new job that I had wanted and worked hard for. I want to keep the baby but then i feel like maybe i should get an abortion and give myself this chance to truly start over and fresh and cut ties with him other than coparenting. 2. I am finish a social work degree and my fiance just finished his Masters and has started working. God chose YOU to be my mommy, I am turning 23 in two days, on July 24th funny enough. I have never cried to hard in my life. Did you spell check your submission? My partner said he would support me either way but I knew deep down to him it might as well have been the end of the world. I feel like I dont know what to do with myself. "Please pray for this woman to continue to stand firm in her choice to give life to her unborn baby," the pro-life organization wrote. Am i allowed to feel i did it for the baby? I am so sorry you had to go through this. My boyfriend is full of regret and wishes he wouldnt have said hurtful things. Hes basically ignoring me emotionally but talking to me civil. ? I was rattled with anxiety and guilt and overwhelmed. It means so much to see it spoken by another. Mamma you knew when I was placed in your womb. God bless you. Im stressed and feel so alone. My daughter was only 800g when she was born, stayed in NICU for 3 month. I dont want to go through an abortion again. I texted two of my closest friends. I need to get a surgical abortion on Monday and he cant even decide if he wants to come and support me. Cant help thinking its meant to be when I got pregnant again. I have searching for someone going through what Im going through but I have yet to find it. The subject presents itself fairly often and I am at a loss. I got pregnant from one night with a guy that I went on a few dates with. I just hope that I can. I was six weeks pregnant . My heart would of gotten excited despite starting all over again. Do NOT submit poems here, instead go to the. I chose to have an abortion for many reasons, including those I just mentioned. He doesnt know the end result, nor do I feel that he deserves to. He walks into the front room while I am mid-stand, so thats how I greet him. But i wanted to say thank-you because your post was something i came across before i went in for my abortion and it brought me to tears. I had an abortion back in 1999. Constant regret and pain . I want to help the conversation start on a different platform and educate. What makes us experts in Online Poetry Publishing? What if I still had no money, no stable place to live? January 22, 2021 - The anniversary of Roe v Wade - 48 years of legal abortion in all fifty states. And, I dont know If I ever would have met my husband of now and not really sure of he would stick around with me having a kid from somebody else but regrets are one of the worst thing that you go though when you make a decision like this. I sit there like that until I hear the front door open and your dad walks in. He keeps trying to make me have the child and give my child full custody and I feel like he wants to rob me because I cant afford to have a child of my own. I lost my baby in August. Wishing all loving thoughts to you. It took almost 6 months and I delivered my poor child.. We dont regret it. I was very confused. Surfing helps, but I know the best thing for healing is time. Hey, came across this after searching for something to resonate with how I feel. I n 1967, when Governor Ronald Reagan made California the third state in the union to liberalize its abortion laws, his hesitancy about doing so was clear from the start . locating a private donor and/ or coparent online Share your story, thoughts, and prayers in words, pictures, or video. In my heart i know that baby would have deserved better, but is it ok to feel THat way? I cough and drink more water until it goes down, close to you. Realizing it is her choice and respecting her decision has been rough but weve grown these past few weeks. I felt a sense of love and attachment to the baby I knew I had to let go. Anyway. Im struggling with this decision. And because I am one, I made the right decision. I havent spoken to my parents yet. Even if you have others support around you, it can so easily feel like youre going through it alone. Hi guys im 24 yrs old. Youre still with me, and Im grateful for that too. I'm speaking. I wanted to be your special child. One day, maybe. That is my "right." When we want our baby in womb then it is a baby. Eventually with some deep talks from my family I booked an appointment and decided it was best not to have the baby I had to have a surgical abortion at 16 weeks . 13 years later I still cry for my baby. A boy or a girl? It is sad to see children God has made being murdered. I just him so much (I dreamt he was a boy) I feel like no one understands how I feel and the support I need to great of what other could provide. You will always be part of my heart, and I know that if someday I see two pink lines again, it will be you coming back to me. All I ask of you is your love and a chance to love you back. We sit in silence for a little while, then I ask him to sit next to me, and he does, all the while looking surprised. It ruins our relationship badly as we are both regretting the biggest mistake we made in our lives. So we did. About Press Copyright Contact us Creators Advertise Developers Terms Privacy Policy & Safety How YouTube works Test new features Press Copyright Contact us Creators . I feel she was a girl. Labor would begin, usually within 12 hours, and the baby would be expelled. Must be awful. I am totally against abortion. Ugh. It was hard but I dont regret it. Guess what? The following article is one I submitted back in March 2017. Top Poems I was pursuing an academic career and never had the chance. Im 33. All their comments are stressing me out and getting me really down. I cry also. Making an impassioned plea to her mother to not abort her, she shares her hopes and fears with the woman who can control whether she lives or dies. However, reading this, even though it did make me cry, also made me realize I could look at this moment as something to grow from and not just bury it away as a bad memory. Im struggling with this right now. I was overjoyed but crushed the next day after he told me we werent ready and that I should get rid of it. Sometimes four days late, sometimes ten days you get the idea. I didnt want to be, but I had a hard time standing up to him and saying no for myself. She was already the mom of a young girl and in an abusive relationship. For those who may have suffered physical injury due to an abortion, we ask that you contact Operation Rescue at 316-683-6790, or e-mail us your story at info.operationrescue@gmail.com. Because o hate that its a decision. Although your husband is not supportive now, he no doubt will grow to love your little child. Take care. I know the abortion has made me realise how much of an amazing mum I am going to be but I am also so desperate to be a mummy and the loss in my gut cant be put into words. I wanted to give her grandchildren but that couldnt be my only reason for keeping the baby. It could take several hours for the baby to die, and sometimes the baby didn't die at all and was born . Please look into and join the face book group I Regret My Abortion there is a logo of a rainbow. , I think to myself. Out loud, we weigh the facts: I have my schooling, Id lose my position of junior teacher if I dont do the teacher training program, thus losing the ability to become a head teacher one day. I have been battling with the decision for some time now, had an appointment yesterday and didnt go because the voices of those who tell me I need to have the courage to keep the baby keep ringing in my head and those that guilt trip me on the decision of abortion and how wrong it is. Children cannot eat love and so please think about your financial situation. I want my baby so much but my family are pushing for a termination as I should be having a child when the timing is right. He promised me we would be ready later and I believed him. But I'll also give you plenty of hugs and kisses Not until Im sure. I know God and His angels will help. I have tried to persuade her to look at forums or see a psychiatrist to help her through the guilt but she doesnt want to be associated with the stigma attached with it. Marni Fults. You are making a decision that will affect not only your life but your boyfriend and your child if you choose to continue. Davis, a mother of three, is fundraising online to cover the cost of traveling out of state to get an abortion. You can also sign up as Sugar . Ive never thought Id be in this position and feel so weak and lost. Its not being selfish if you think about it deeper. WASHINGTON The Biden administration on Monday told hospitals that they "must" provide abortion services if the life of the mother is at risk, saying federal law on emergency treatment. And way farther along than I thought. I regret my decision every day. It cant be easy and its hurtful for the man youre suppose to be with to embed abortion in your head after telling you, you two could try again. Its been two years since my abortion and I always think about that little heart beat. I feel like the world makes us feel weak, like we cant handle both our dreams and a child that will love us and need us more than we could understand. The World Health Organization (WHO) estimates that 42 million abortions are induced worldwide each year. I feel my baby moving around and he doesnt understand what Im going through. For some reason, Im not moved, but still, I dont want to lose you. According to Florida's Reducing Fetal and Infant Mortality law, which was implemented last July, abortions are prohibited after 15 weeks of gestation, with a few exceptions, including one that. He puts his hand on my thigh and asks, What do you want to do? I ask him, What do you want to do? He replies, I want to do whatever you decide. It hurt because I was all alone in it,the thought of it break my heart into million pieces Ive prayed to God to forgive me but still I cant get over it. My best friend just found out she is pregnant a few days ago and she is only 19. Praying for all of you and I know now every situation is so different. I dont understand how someone who has children already, can be so selfish and cold hearted. Sometimes I still feel her, I pray that shes come back. Mom's Letter to Baby During Pregnancy A Letter to My Unborn Baby: Here's What I Promise You September 25, 2017 by Laura Marie Meyers Dear Baby, There are still a few months until we. To be honest, the abortion probably saved my life. Im 28 now and I dont see having a kids in the future maybe because I cant forgive myself with what Ive done. Up to this moment Im still thinking of her, asking God and her for forgiveness. He is the reason why I feel so motivated now, and although its not easy I wouldnt trade him for anything in the world. Dont panic, I thought. Im giving up the pregnancy to focus on my toddler & also to avoid a life of suffering for the new baby You know in your heart what the right decision is. And make you scream and shout, Participate in the campaign: "All AGAINST ABORTION!" Oh and one more thing abortion doesnt affect your fertility. The abortionist, he explains, after draining the uterus of the amniotic fluid that was protecting the child, inserts a claw-like instrument into the womb. Every night I went to bed, I cried. So at 26 years old, on April 10th, 2015, just as I had for months prior, I took a pregnancy test because I was eight days late. I told myself there was no way i could be pregnant. Im sure it goes without saying from reading about my childhood but I have mental health issues and Im not sure having a child of my own is something I will ever be mentally ready for, but I certainly wasnt then.

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